Mainly, why I've been so quiet in regards of posting and commissions and stuff.
Aside from twitter, I've been keeping whats been happening the last four months pretty quiet. At least on the public online face. But I'm moving past that, and I'd like to air my dirty laundry so to speak.
First and foremost, HO MY GOD. School has been insane. Tight deadlines, challenging projects. It's intense, but a LOT of fun. I'm loving my program, and my classmates and my teachers, and it's an experience that I'm so happy to be able to have. I'm really lucky, you guys. But yeah. That's been keeping me pretty busy. On top of the workload, though, getting there has been hammering me incredibly hard. I live a 2 hour (with good traffic) transit ride away from my school. So that's already four hours out of my day right there. Intense, right? On top of that, I spend from 5 to 9 hours a day in class, and a good 3+ hours after school doing work, because it's all stuff I need to be at school for. So, as you can imagine, my free time is pretty... non existent. I've been trying to get back to commissions, especially recently. It's... a really nice break drawing something so much more relaxed. (And you know, one drawing compared to like, hundreds? XD) But yeah. So, that's my school life! XD
Now, to the other thing.
In September, the second week of school, my boyfriend tells me he doesn't love me anymore. That... destroyed me pretty efficiently. So that, paired with school... it really wasn't very nice. I ended up staying with a friend for two months, living out of a bag of my stuff, because I could not handle being around him. Fuck, for most of September, leading into October, I was having a hard time getting through even a few hours without bawling my eyes out. I kind of pulled away from the internet for a while (mainly because I only had my phone while at my friend's house.) At the end of October, he and I had had a 'final talk' so to speak, and I had asked if I was important enough to him to want me to still be in his life, because I couldn't be just a friend. To that he said we should go out separate ways, so I left, made arrangements, ect. But then the next day I get an email from him telling me how he's made such a big mistake and how he wants to try again. So after a lot of thought, I said ok, and we tried. Not even two weeks later he changes his mind.
And so here we are now. He's gone, and has been gone for a week or so now. It's... nice, actually. Being by myself. I mean, I loved him. I gave him nearly four years of my life, and honestly? I had wanted to make a life with him, and for a while, he had felt the same way. But I guess some where along the way, something changed. But, whatevs, right?
Hopefully that clears up a few things (I wasn't hiding, I promise!) And now, I'm gonna try to get as much work as I can! Especially since he took a great deal of the food, so I've been grabbing dinner out (a lot more then I should have, admittedly) and I need to clear the charges to my credit card before they build and fuck me over royally. SO!!!
Here is my question to you. I'm thinking about doing a Christmas commission auction for a 'tied up under the tree' commission! AND OH MY GOD YOU GUYS GUESS WHAT. It's going to be g-xxx depending!
! Because I have a better knowledge of anatomy! (At least a little bit. Thank you twice a week life drawing classes!)
So, any interest?